Thanks for the hugs! Turns out it was a squirrelly week!

I became sick from the gabitril... and sicker with each day I took it...

Monday the new gardener came back to finish stuff... and decided to plant a plant voluntarily for me, cut through my tv cable... another story... but no cable all week..

and my computer had picked up the sasser worm from the tech who checked it out before sending it back to me...

I'm still sick... but healing now off gabitril I was so sick I picked up my narcotic pain med a week late! got the picture?

Anyway, now I'm wondering, why bother with a pain specialist (medical) anyway? I've tried the alternate seizure/pain meds.. except neurontin (oh sigh.) and am allergic to other pain meds (even the generic of the one I CAN take..)

I already have a physical therapist, a pain/stress psychologist and an MD with pain meds... unless the MD insists on farming me out, I 'd rather stay the way things are.

So tired of trying... what a trauma... almost dying AGAIN! I can't count how many times I've looked it in the um er f a c e?

so tired of trying... trying not to succumb to depression right now... but tired of trying that too... guess it's normal after what I've just been through but since when am I normal?