Right now cat videos are dangerous; the crying started when I realized I was telling my 20 year old cat that I have to go away for a week. I'm always scared to leave her. She's so old and not that healthy and well, something awful could happen if I leave her and I wouldn't get to say good-bye. But they are funny most of the time and I'll check them out when I get back.

I finally stopped although I have to scrub a pan that made me sob a little while ago. Hearing about my niece's birthday party that I missed today was not easy but I'm glad she had a good day. I wish I were well enough to go but I spent the party curled up like a pill bug staring at the wall.

This is always so hard. I've made it out 3 1/2 years and I think it's actually harder to go back after that time.