Yeah, I've been doing better the past two days (including today) . . .I think it was partially exhaustion and the fat that I've held in so much emotion for so long regarding the past- that and I can sorta have freak out moments sometimes when it comes to major life changes- like last night on the way home, I was getting worked up thinking of how I had contacted my former employer before work because I was thinking of going back (a good option while I go to school- it' closer to home, easier hours and better pay, no allergens, less stress I think), if only part time with an increased salary (if they'll agree to my terms) and I mostly had good thoughts of the benefits but then a whole lot of other past issues I dealt with during the time I worked there came flooding back to my mind and I worked myself up into a tizzy with anxiety about whether it was the best decision- I had already turned them down a few months back when they contacted me about coming back so I would feel stupid if I changed my mind again - and just made myself go to bed- I was able to check myself, see that I was freaking out- like an anxiety attack of sorts. . . but no anger or crying, lol.