I am just now starting to see a slight pattern with my episodes. It seems like I am depressive for 2 weeks, then neutral for 2 weeks(give or take, seasons and life events also a factor). Not sure exactly when my mania hits. It seems random. I always hope for it though, since I feel really happy and excited, extremely productive. I tend to put myself down a lot for being lazy, since I was told I am my entire life. No one seems to understand(or care) that depression means lack of interest. I would think someone who is actually lazy would enjoy doing nothing. Whereas I do not like it at all. Ok, kind of went off on a tangent there, sorry.