Gosh I would hate to feel that way about my therapist and my heart goes out to you. I know it must be a painful feeling and I am so sorry you are feeling so unloved by others. I love my therapist too, but not the way you love yours. I too find it hard to imagine him not being in my life but I also know that one day it will happen. I'm feeling more comfortable now about cutting back on the frequency of our visits though deep down it makes me sad. I wish I could hold on to him forever, but know that will never happen. Fortunately I have a very loving husband in my life so I am not alone and unloved. But the love between a patient and therapist is a one of a kind type of love that is very powerful. Hang in there and I hope your pain will end someday and that you will find somone of your own to love you.