((((hugs)))) For some, the garbage seems more normal, natural because that's all they had experience with while growing up, or even during years as an adult. You posted correctly in self esteem, as this is what has been all but obliterated for some people, leaving them unable to find anything good about themselves. It takes hard work (mind work, thought stopping/changing) to counter what it took years to implant erroneously. (((hugs)))