Hello. Im a 26 year old male from los angeles. I've recently been diagnosed with severe depressive disorder. I feel like I have always been a little depressed but up until recently (4-5 months) it has affected my life so much that I finally sought help. I am currently taking wellbutrin and seeing a therapist.

I came here for advice and your thoughts on my situation. I realized i was depressed when a day of work felt like a week. I found absolutely no joy in anything I did anymore. Dropped most of my hobbys and even felt distanced from my girlfriend of 10 years. Things got bad !

I feel like i am incapable of feeling love or joy now. I would spend time with my girlfriend hoping that these feelings would pass, and they never did. Even on medication I cant feel the way i used to about her. I broke up with her recently. I didnt want to keep her around while I knew i didnt feel love for her anymore. Not romantic love anyway if it makes any sense. Now I regret it, but am still not sure if i can feel that love for her again.

I feel like depression has taken everything from me. I feel like im too far gone to get her back even if i tried. Ive been making bad decisions and noticed that I act on impulse. It only makes me feel worse. I recently went to the pub with some friends and made out with a girl. I feel like **** about it as I only recently broke up with my girlfriend. It was fun in the moment but it truly brought me no joy. Im out of control and Im afraid ive lost her for good now. I pushed her away....

My therapist has not been of much help. She says its natural for someone thats been with the same person as long as i have to want to explore and be single. Since we were highschool sweethearts, she says we never got a chance to grow as adults on our own. I know im rambling and im sorry i just really need some input.

Can depression make you not capable of feeling love ? can it make you THINK youve fallen out of love ? Help me !