Needing to process those who tried to sabotage every relationship I sought in particular intimate relationship. Basically, being in a relationship before was way less complicated where I could talk on the phone your life was your life and mine was mine. I didn't have to worry about who was watching who or anything of that nature. It was very much like oh boy I'm a registered sex offender because there was no way around having to disclose my diagnoses knowing the reaction I would get and the mad stigma. Yes, I drawing that parallel! It's was like I was forced to make everyone my D.I.D expert in addition to my lover. If not, my ptsd and dissociative system would go through the roof! I tried disclosing without full understanding and still the same results applied. I never never never had to deal with this much complication in my life at all! It is like I/we was unpaid actors. I always had a fear that men I meet were apart of my therapist secretly because I couldn't figure out how there sentences at times seemed like they were undercover T . I have made sense of what at the time seem like something out a cult world! I just feel like I left some things on the table in the relationship area and much was done both ways when it didn't have to happen that way. I/we have better ways to cope since I know now this isn't probably going to change with people I meet. I'm much better in my own understanding of the implications of meeting someone, ptsd, did etc. I don't want to have to preface every introduction with I'm this person and that person unless it gets serious or that I may married this person. How do people handle this ? Mentally ill and dating. I'm sorry if the this analogy offends anyone, but the hate and confusion is so thick I don't know anything else to compare it to.