Costello - I'm so sorry to hear that your son is in hospital. to both of you. I think your fears about overmedication are justified. I'm inclined to think that your son might be one of the med-sensitive people and that 5mg olanzapine, which is very little to lots of pdocs, might be too much, but increasing that is highly likely to be their first step :/

Hope is so important IMO. If I have even a tiny speck of hope, I can deal with anything and not feel remotely suicidal, but if my hope disappears, then I see absolutely no point in continuing. I am fortunate in that I am currently making big positive changes in my life (moving cities to return to Uni next month), and the boost to my self-esteem at moving forward with my life, and the strong hope that it will be better this time, is buoying me up; no matter how hard they attempt to sabotage me. The noise is horrendously loud right now, but I have hope that I can do this anyway. I hope that your son gets the spark of hope back very soon - it might help foster hope to remind him how far he has come, and therefore he can do it again

All the best to you both

*Willow*