Hi moodycow. Only saw this thread now. I'm so pleased you're being helped though I'm sorry that the dark thoughts returned. Please get further help for that, if you can.

I've been sober a little over a month now but I know I've had it easier than most and didn't have to go through a detox or anything. Being sober though, has been a freeing and relieving feeling. I can only hope the same for you.

Sending you strength