I feel like I'm a fraud.

The thing is, I'm DFAB and currently IDing as non-binary/androgyne.

But it doesn't feel right. Ever since I can remember, I've always thought of myself as male. It caused me a LOT of grief when I was growing up. But I feel like a 'fake' because I have absolutely no desire to be hypermasculine or even traditionally masculine. I enjoy 'feminine' things and expressing my femininity. Physically, I do all I can to appear male, I bind, shave my head and I've stopped removing facial hair.

I wish to be seen and treated as male, but my interests and personality are typically feminine and I have no desire to be any different.

To make things even more fun, despite my femininity, I consider myself a straight man.

My doctors blow me off constantly because I don't present as masculine and I'm 'confused', although I'd LOVE to start hormones and get top surgery. I may be feminine personality wise, but I suffer from really bad dysphoria when it comes to my body.

Ugh, am I really just a confused fake? Or is this actually a valid ID?