Yeah I think I'm going to look for grief counseling. I can stay on with the pdoc at the program as an outpatient. But I think I will ask about the increase too. Just as an extra pick me up so that I can keep my job and process my grief. I'm afraid of work becoming too much for me again and having to take time off again...I'm pretty sure it would be my last time off. Can't afford to live on disability, plus I just can't be home all the time, as these last two weeks have proven.

Plus side, I did take a walk and go to the park with my son yesterday. I only slept for three hours as opposed to the whole day.