hi astrozombies
as you indicated, depression can rob you of everything. i wouldnt give your therapist a bad review. i think she gave you some good advice. you are just upset. you were in a situation where, as you said, you did something impulsive, you were under the influence, and you regretted it. i am sure after 10 years you still love your girlfriend. it is just with the hopelessness of depression, it is difficult to experience these feelings. i dont think it is that you dont love her anymore, it is just that because of the depression, you are unable to interpret the feelings through the same lens as in the past. you are not going to be able to judge your true feelings toward her until the depression clears.

breaking up is sometimes a good thing as the added stressor makes it difficult to get well, but then you do not have the support of someone you love. you have to remember that your feelings are skewed by the depression. if it is difficult for you to decide, you can leave it up to her as to whether she wants to be in the relationship or not based on where you stand.

I hope this is helpful. welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome