Thanks. I asked because I'm going to say something that other people may totally disagree with.

When I read your first post yesterday, my first thought was "this woman needs psychotherapy and a lot of it - she's not ready to be in a relationship".

I had a friend/acquaintance a few years ago who was in a situation similar to what you've described with an emotionally abusive boyfriend. I met her about a year after similar events had happened to her. I was shocked that someone who seemed so down-to-earth and in charge of her life would have allowed herself to be pulled into that sort of situation.

After I had known her for a few months, the guy that she was seeing asked her to do something similar (prostitution to earn money for something he wanted) and she did it. She was very upset afterwards. I asked her "But, why???" I truly could not understand. She said "I love him and I wanted to make him happy."

I imagine that you can see that, in this woman's case, there were distorted beliefs about what you should do for someone you love.

I am not suggesting that you leave your girlfriend. I just hope that she will get some serious psychological help.

It does make complete sense to me that you would be bothered by what she did. I would think that if she begins to work to repair her ways of thinking and feeling that led her to be susceptible to becoming caught in her past situation of abuse, that the painful images you're having will begin to fade with time.

I know that everyone on this site says "go to therapy", but truly, individual therapy for both of you (long-term for her) and couples counseling may be needed if you're going to get through all this.

If you need a safe place to talk about your feelings about this, besides to a therapist, this forum can be very helpful. Just be careful with your passwords since you're discussing your relationship with someone who may have access to your phone/computer/etc.