So I've been told in another forum that some of my symptoms sound like bipolar disorder, and now I'm wondering if I experience hypomania.

I've had bouts of depression since I was a kid. Recently I've been put on Celexa (actually around February that I was put on it), which on the first day caused me to be more talkative and I didn't need that much sleep. Anyhow a few weeks later I had to up the dose and the first week was rough. I also took ritalin. I was very agitated and could barely get any work done. There were times where I was really happy, only to get really irritated. I didn't want to eat because I was so irritated and I felt that food was slowing me down. That lasted for about a week and it was at the time that I was on my period.

A few months later I became irritated because people were around and I ended up having delusions that lasted for almost two months. I thought my food was being poisoned, I was being spied on, this world was fake and somehow I got into another dimension, demons were after me, and that a song was talking to me.

TW: Self Harm and suicide mention


There were days where I had little to no motivation and it would be hard for me to move. Other days I felt both tired but also wound up.

Now my delusions are pretty much gone but I get the urge not to sleep. I have that same tired but wound up feeling and I want to not sleep until I crash. I mean I've always had problems sleeping, but now I feel like I got to do something or just stay up because I probably hate myself.

TW self harm and suicide mention again.


So, this is what has been happening. I don't know if this falls under a mood disorder or of it's something else completely. I will be talking to a pdoc by the end of next month.

Also, what's the difference between agitated depression and dysphoric (hypo)mania?