I know there was an older thread about boredom but didnt know if itd show as recent if I posted on it.

Anyhow, boredom to me feels HORRIBLE. Torturous, almost like a crime is being commited against me. Ive read different posts about boredom making you feel bad and then never being satisfied in the end anyway, which is how it is for me, but wondering if its bipolar that makes it feel like the world is being mean to me, like im being sleighted by having to endure boredom, like im being denied the opportunity to feel like i exist, or something like that..hard to explain..but is it just bipolar or would that ne leaning toward borderline personality disorder? I havent bee dx'd with BPD, but I dont know what to think anymore.