You have made a deliberate decision to stop all meds. You repeatedly have talked about stopping meds in all of your posts. Things do not happen by accident. You are aware you are not taking your pills.

I guess what I am saying is we are in control of our lives. Yes, we are all here bc we have a mental illness and we cannot control that, but we are in control of how we handle our lives with said mental illness.

I hope you find some peace and work out a plan that keeps you safe and your little ones safe.