I'm not just real familar with BPD but I'm curious to know others stories about it. I am a cutter, and here lately have been acting completly unlike myself....eating, quit my job, spending, sex, cursing and a lot of drinking. I don't know why I am doing all of these things b/c it makes me feel ashamed ect...I'm not the type of person to get extremely angry as far as showing my anger but I'm to afraid to reach out for help because I don't want to hurt or disappoint the people who love me....and I don't see my pdoc/therapist until wed......i'm kinda scaring myself.....i feel as if I'm going straight down hill fast....sorry I just needed to say that...thanks for listening