I'm 32 and last year I came out of a 4 year on and off relationship. My ex was a narcissist and has a habit of coming back into my life every time I try and get myself back on my feet. I do still love him...at least it feels like I do, but maybe it's more that I miss having SOMEONE. All my friends are getting married and I'm slowly losing hope that my day will come. My dream was always to have a family of my own and I can feel it slipping further and further away from me. I've almost come to terms with the fact that it just won't happen for me, but it's hard to accept. I know having someone doesn't make you instantly happy and fix everything, but I'm so scared of ending up a lonely old woman that's never married or had children. I feel like there must be something very wrong with me and that I'm damaged. I get so lonely and I miss having someone to cuddle up to and be there. My ex even said in so many words that I wouldn't make a great mum as I have OCD and I couldn't be like that with children. Maybe he was right and I can never have what I always dreamed of.
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