hi pinkorchid, i used to pick everything apart that people said. i thought everything had a twisted negative meaning. i sometimes think people have a hidden agenda for speaking to me; example: i am being analyzed or people only speak to me for their amusement. i sometimes believe people are trying to... take notes of the things i say and report them back to whoever (i know who, it's too much to elaborate here). i call it data collecting, hahaha. i also don't work, i collect disability however. and it sucks.

i also, don't take medications or go to therapy. i have had sza for 12 years now. however it has been 7 years since i have received any mental health help.

anyway, welcome to the schizoaffective forum.
and welcome to psychcentral.