Ah yes, things are not the way I want them to be either, so many feels for that statement.

I wish my relationships were better too. I work to do my part, but it doesn't stop the negative feelings. I have a tendency to get stuck mind loops. Fighting that takes very deliberate action on my part, sometimes I can bust it easy and sometimes it takes days.

About a year ago, I let someone new/old into my life. That helped me a lot. Grounded me. Filled some gaps.

Keep being creative!

Maybe let your daughter come to you.