I think you are on the right track with letting it come to you, but its not a bad thing to have goals. I think the trick is to have daily goals that lead up to your long term goals, and making lists of small things to accomplish each day instead of taking it all on at once (which is what i do lol). Its a constant conflict with me...when im depressed i cant do anything, when im manic i try to do allll the things i didnt do when. iwas depressed in a sense of making up for lost time and catching my life up, but that always fails because i end up overhwhelmed, extremely irritated and angry, cant focus on one thing bc im tryng to focus n it all and cant decide what to do next....and then nothng gets done that way either. My counsler gave me a weekly chart that I was supposed to fill in two or three SMALL things to accomplish each day and I havent touched it because its a list and i cant follow lists because they feel too routine and strict. I try to go with the flow. Now it seems like Im so scared of doing more than one thing a day because i think its goijg to overwhelm me and irritate me. Sometimes my careful thinking works in the opposite direction, but then again youre inly supposed to do what u feel u can handle and maybe thats really all i can handle. Wow that turned into a ramble about myself, so gettung back to the point...have goals but pace yourself and be weary of feeling overwhelmed.
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all I've undergone
I will keep on
underneath it all
we feel so small
the heavens fall
but still we crawl
all I've undergone
I will keep on
-NIN
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