I love him whole heatedly, but I have watched over the last few years, his heart darkening. He has told me things that would probably put him away, twisted, evil things. How do I put myself in his shoes. I thought I was his anchor, his reality, but I think it has seeded so deep inside of him that it wouldn't take much to push him over the edge. He REALLY needs help, but he refuses to go because he believes they would lock him up and he would rather take his ultimate route out.