sidony - you're a trooper for sticking with me on this! you don't know how much your posts mean to me....i don't feel quite so alone!! i'm sorry though that you are being subjected to my twisted actions...if it's too much, please don't hurt yourself by reading what i write here!!

i know i should go be around people and try not to hurt myself...but i've given up on that....already gone too far....i have a psychiatrist appt tomorrow - i've never met the doc...but if he asks if i've SI'd there's no way i can honestly say no.....

i also have to go back to work tomorrow after being in the hospital....it's been about two weeks since i've been at work....i'm dreading it!!!!!

no....i'lll sit here in my nakedness and hurt myself .....i can promise nothing life threatening....but i'm pretty much a lost cause today....

i'm sorry to let you down....