My mother has despised me since the day I was born. My mom and dad haven't been much of a married couple and for the past 19yrs Ive seen them fight horribly and my mother would beat me up to get the anger out. I do most of the work asked to do, but she still says unspeakable things. My parents never let me finish high school because if I study further they won't have an unpaid nurse. Now I know I have no future, I also have no friends anymore. I barely go out. I don't care about keeping myself clean. The left side of my head is always hurting, most of the time I am sleepy and tired. I don't feel like doing anything. I am writing here cause I almost killed myself today. I need help to thinkclearl. I don't want to die. I just want a way out of this house where I am cursed day and night only for being born as a girl. Also, I just know for a fact that my problem isn't physical. Thank you for your time.