I've always treated others well, they just don't treat me well. I don't like them, but that doesn't mean I treat them bad. I've always treated people well, then they treat me like ****.
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Now Francis, just because I'm depressed that doesn't mean they'll find me interesting. I get sad and angry, but that doesn't mean that other sad or angry people want to know me. Their depression is for whole other reasons anyway, I can't relate to them, nor they could with me and my reasons. Chatting in forums is totally different than talking in-real-life too, by the way. The thing is, I don't enjoy any of their hobbies. When I say I don't like doing something they do like, they just unfriend me and see me as a loser, and I understand that. It has always been like that, there is just no going around it, because I AM a loser. Now, I'm not just self-pitying, I'm being realistic, even though I don't see myself as one, but basing it on society's standards, I am one.

English is just a language, I've spend most of my time on the internet and have learned it pretty well, It's my only skill, which is basically useless because 1/3 of the Bulgarian youth already knows it on a good-enough level. And it's not like I can do anything useful that anybody else can't; with it. Believe me, I totally suck at everything. I can't memorize, not creative, I'm really bad at math, bad at sports, at everything; I hardly get below average scores, even if I try.