Last night for me was worse then before. I didn't go out with my friend, my BF and my friend's BF to a bar/club last night because I was feeling bad, alot of anxiety and panic attacks last night.

Last night I cried, this morning I cried. I didn't get to bed until afer 2am waiting to hear from my BF had my bags packed ready to go. Tried phoning his cell, text messaged him and nothing. I didn't get a hold of him until almost 2... and he said he saw that I phoned but the place was loud and didn't call back.

I am not cool with that, because it's bullsh*t. He could have taken 2 seconds just to say he was still there. What if I was having a panic attack and I said to him if i phone you and can't get a hold of you to check the phone and call me back. Well he did and didn't call me back.

I needed him last night and he wasn't there for me.

Now i'm going to cry again.