just want to. and dont see any reason not to.

havent been here in a long while. bf is not here right now, deployed to iraq for a month, i'm here with his son right now.

bf not here..one reason why i should right now.

his son keeps talking about how he thinks of doing this, makes me feel bad so i want to do it.

and then, the big ugly scars, the ones that are already there. all purple and red. just makes me more angry.

if only i knew what bf would think if he saw open cut. takes so long for me to heal now. he's seen the scars but never the cuts.

i dont know

big decision to make