I have been wondering recently what triggers me, because I've been very much out of balance in the past few months. I've found one weird thing, though its certainly not the only one. There I a linguistic context: my first name has several forms in my native language, and each of them has different uses. There is that official form, which I always use for work. And there is that ' childish one, used around family and friends. I haven't actually been using that one for ages, not even with friends. For some reason, people I've been around recently address me with the second one. Now, that has really messed up with me, apart from other things. I think a different part of me often responds to that form.