Why don't you ever check on me to see if I'm okay? I don't think it's right that I have to deal with this alone. I'm sad, lonely, and depressed and I know that there's a way out of this but I just can't get it. I don't understand how to do it. I need you. You say I don't need you and that it's all inside me but I can't find it. Please. Why can't you feel that I'm hurting? Why can't you sense it? We don't live that far apart. I'm calling you with my mind but you aren't answering. Please pick up. I don't understand what this intense sadness is even about. Or, I don't want it to be what I thought it might be about.

If I yell your name would you hear me?