i cut BADBADBADBAD last night. Like really really bad. I have it all wrapped in gauze and a sweatshirt. But it's really really bad. It's lterally the most horrifying thing I've ever seen on myself. I'm scared to tell therapist tomorrow because she will ask to see. I don't know. I'm scared but I'm actually more afraid of her cancelling because I think this needs some serious medical attention and I don't think I'll get it myself. I know it's too late for stitches.

I'm supposed to be working on stopping and I totally messed up AGAIN.

I can't look at it because i's making me want to faint.