Yeah, so she is emotionally unavailable. But when I view it from that perspective instead of simply seeing the walls she has built, it changes things. The walls are a symptom, not the issue.

She won't love me for a very very long time, if ever, and I don't know if I'm strong enough for that. At the same time, though, if I just up and leave it totally validates any fear she has that this is what will happen, thus making it harder for her to let herself fall in love in the future and be happy. I can't do that, either, because I want for her to be happy. Though preferably with me. I'm not in love with this woman, but I have feelings for her so strong that they scare me very much. I think I'm going to wait it out for a while and see what happens. There are times when we are together that she let's her guard down almost completely and it gives me hope. She talks about a future for us, she will be affectionate for a few minutes, her tone changes, her eyes sparkle...it pulls me in. If only I could see her more than one afternoon a week.