hi BRwriter

I am sorry that you have been bullied at school. That can really great havoc with self-esteem and confidence. There is, however, a kind of healing, meditation, you can do about that. You can visualize yourself as an adult going into those scenes and embracing your inner child and filling it with your healing love and doing that repeatedly will help with these memories. People that have a religious faith visualize God doing this for them. But reminding yourself that the bullying is in the past when you start to think about it might help.

Are you in therapy for your anxiety? That can give you a really good coping skills for dealing with it. Amazon does have some self-help literature on the use of acceptance and commitment therapy for dealing with anxiety conditions. These may be available. Even from the public library. Research has revealed that, trying to get rid of these feelings doesn't work. What does work is accepting them, saying to yourself I am experiencing anxiety and observing that as it passes through your mind while at the same time getting on with the business of the day. Worked for me and will for you. But if you are getting good grades for your assignments you are doing really good and should feel confident about future progress and reminding yourself of your successes would bolster confidence when you get worried about future assignments.

Neither of your parents really understand about anxiety, and that is because they have never suffered from it as a disorder. I was just wondering whether your school has a school counselor that you could see about this? They could refer you to a therapist who would help. And there are free clinics where therapy is freely available. There may be one in your area. Have you spoken to your family doctor about this problem?

This voice you have been hearing might go away. But you can start dialoguing with this asking it. What it wants and even negotiating with it only to speak with you at a fixed time for a half an hour each day. There are people who hear voices and there is the hearing voices network and even therapy for dealing successfully with this problem, but that would only become necessary. If the problem increased which it may not. And don't worry if it does, because it can be dealt with. There is the book called living with voices the account of how 50 people overcame this problem successfully, which is available on Amazon. However, going there might not be necessary.

The self-help literature I mentioned may be available from the public library in any case. Used copies of it are more cheaply available also from eBay and Amazon. Googling how to cope with anxiety on the Internet would bring up much useful information. Take care. I hope and pray everything will get much better for you soon. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis