hi blind archer

This does seem like a kind of OCD. People feel that they must complete certain activities, because if they don't. They fear that something really horrible is going to happen. What do you think would happen if you did not complete one of those things?

If you think something bad will happen just take one small thing and don't complete it and see what happens and you will find that nothing disastrous will. Calling the bluff of this particular tendency is a very good way of dealing with it. Have you ever discussed this particular problem with a counselor? I really hope and pray this does get better for you in the future. Take care. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis