home from my moms. had a hard night there. some weird stuff happened. which caused me to feel suicidal. havent felt that way in a while. it was different though... i didnt feel like i wanted to kill myself right then. but i was making plans like setting a date to do it. and i felt really calm about it. i woke up this morning and was a little scared about that. T said we can talk about overwhelm and how to manage it.

today my plan is to complete my homework. i have a lot of hours at work again. i go back tomorrow 9 -4 manning self checkout. they are low on front end employees and are in the process of interviewing cashiers/baggers. so that is why i am getting a lot of hours. also the teens went back to school so they dont have a lot of ppl to work the day shift. i am supposed to not work over 20 hours in a week, but i have 26 this week. the paycheck is nice, but it takes a toll on me.