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Old Aug 26, 2015, 02:34 PM
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Originally Posted by Only_Human1983 View Post
I'm 32 and last year I came out of a 4 year on and off relationship. My ex was a narcissist and has a habit of coming back into my life every time I try and get myself back on my feet. I do still love him...at least it feels like I do, but maybe it's more that I miss having SOMEONE. All my friends are getting married and I'm slowly losing hope that my day will come. My dream was always to have a family of my own and I can feel it slipping further and further away from me. I've almost come to terms with the fact that it just won't happen for me, but it's hard to accept. I know having someone doesn't make you instantly happy and fix everything, but I'm so scared of ending up a lonely old woman that's never married or had children. I feel like there must be something very wrong with me and that I'm damaged. I get so lonely and I miss having someone to cuddle up to and be there. My ex even said in so many words that I wouldn't make a great mum as I have OCD and I couldn't be like that with children. Maybe he was right and I can never have what I always dreamed of.

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Your ex sounds like a real piece of ****. Try online dating? It's the craze these days. Put yourself out there. And love yourself- there's nothing wrong with you as a person, regardless of mental illness. Learn to love and respect yourself and being single will be tolerable. That way as you meet more people you can qualify and gauge whether or not they are worth your time and intimacy.
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