((((safe hug))) Perhaps your need to face your trauma is different than what the T or others might think is "facing" your trauma. The very fact that you wrote about it, to me, means you have met it face to face. I don't believe one must accept or embrace what occurred. That might come much later but truly, PTSD just doesn't allow some things for a very, very, long time!

When I was first injured/disabled and subsequently developed PTSD, I informed my T and wrote about how my faith suddenly disappeared! As time went on and I was once again able to study... I determined that "faith" must be "stored" in at least one key area of the brain which is affected by trauma response as well. Trust me, I was a very deeply religiously a person of faith and of experiences of faith prior to the accident.

I had to learn, by faith, to not doubt in the dark what I knew to be true in the light. And that was about the extent of my "faith" in anything for many years: that I knew that I knew, what I knew about God and faith and His love before the PTSD, and it was the disorder that changed my perception, and it did not change God nor His promises etc.

Okay so maybe you aren't that much of a believer.... I think the key is to not think you have to "go through" the drama of the trauma at all---ever! You can talk about it, around it etc and give the brain other information so it can help you heal... discussions with your T and how to move on in spite of the abuse....all help you heal. Don't get stuck in the thought line of having to go through every detail etc. Actually, discussion of bits of similar feelings etc train the brain how to file those memories, and you might not have to discuss the main one at all, for the brain continues to file ALL similar memories once you show it where to put it.

If the time comes to express all that happened to you, you'll know it and will be ready to do so. Don't push. Going slower at times can make therapy work faster!