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junkDNA · 03:51 PM

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Originally Posted by A18793715

I'm okay. Just thinking a lot. How are you doing?

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Possible trigger:

The other night, I went to a bar with my boyfriend. There was 3 guys by the pool tables and we sat by them since it was less crowded. After one drink, he went to get another one. Everything was fine. Then he went to get change for the pool tables so me and him could play pool. That's when the 3 guys automatically swarmed towards me and my boyfriend said it look like they were trying to walk around to get me to pay attention to one while the others were behind me. (That makes me paranoid just thinking about it.) When I drink, my cup never leaves my hand. But you couldn't set drinks on the pool tables, so I had to leave it on the table. I would take a drink in between turns but by like turn 3, I couldn't hit any balls. I was too shaky. That's basically the last thing I remember. My boyfriend said I was completely messed up that he literally had to carry me home basically. He said he turned to a bush to pick a flower for me and it wasn't even 3 seconds and he turned around and my finger was bleeding badly. He couldn't figure out what cut my finger. So I went and got a tetanus shot the next day. My arm still feels like someone punched me extremely hard. It makes my stomach turn to think what could have happened if I was alone. Last night, I basically lived it out in my dream. Now I'm terrified to leave my boyfriends side.

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On a brighter note, I went to my MHMR meeting and my doctors appointment isn't until my birthday. Nov 6. The lady said in one year, I'll be living independently and they'll help with all furnishings. And to start classes at school. I have very high doubts but we'll see. The lady said they'll cover all of my medication costs. So maybe I can get back on the antidepressant that did the best for me but cost almost $100 with my dads federal insurance that's really good. So, we'll see.

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wow, that is really scary. i am glad your boyfriend was there. the MHMR sounds nice. those are good goals to have. i hope it all works out and you are able to find some relief.

i am doing ok today. i bought a decal of a fox wearing glasses and i put it in my bedroom. it looks cool.