As my BFF since 6th grade died 1 month ago to an intentional overdose of heroin & OxyContin I've been feeling myself bipolar? I didn't know this about her. Nor did I realise how damn hard her death would hit me? It hurts too much. My mum passed / years ago. My dad at a tender age. Feeling alone in this world. I'm so sorry for everyone's losses. I'm no one special . It's my life is loss after loss. I felt like I wanted to die today. Wishing not to wake up. It's things like stumbling upon this page that gives me 1 strand if hope to hang on 1 more hour.