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Originally Posted by AuroraBorealis75
I'm afraid that my therapist will think I am being melodramatic or manipulative when I read my letter to her because every time I have to tell her about something really hard to talk about I get really anxious and quiet and sometimes I start shaking. I'm afraid she will think I'm putting on a show of being scared so that that she will feel sorry for me and not tell me what she really thinks of me.
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I'm sure she doesn't think you're being manipulative and putting on a show for her. I don't get the impression you're that kind of person at all.
In terms of whether to tell her...I agree with some other posters that if you feel it's interfering with the therapy, you should say something. You might feel relief after getting it out--I know I did when I told my marriage counselor (though it was also very hard to do). Though for you, it's especially complicated because of the sexuality issues. Maybe you could just talk about wanting to be close to her rather than mention the sexual aspects, if that makes you more comfortable at first. Or say you wish she could hold you and comfort you, something like that. You don't have to share every thought in your head about her.