I can empathize. Forget trying to get understanding from anyone not in your shoes...not going to happen. I will say this...surgery is not always a good option. Plastic surgeons like to sell their craft but look at all the post-surgery freakshows...the facelifts gone bad and whatnot. I wouldn't trust any of them...greedy opportunists. In many cases you end up as you were minus dignity. I get mad just thinking about it.