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SheHulk07 · 12:03 AM

Possible trigger and possibly not in the right spot.

I did something that I don't know if it's counts as self harm. I have not told anyone, not even my therapist, and I feel so f ed up about it. I keep telling myself I shouldn't have done it, what's wrong with me, etc.

I don't know how to put this is a box...

Possible trigger:

I have an IUD, and I pushed the strings up into my cervix with a qtip. I wanted them out of the way, and figured that if the doctors couldn't find it, they'd have to remove it. Then I could get my sex drive back, and my husband would stop raping me in my sleep. These are the thoughts in my head.

But the problem is, I might have hurt myself in doing it. I have lots of pain, etc, and now I have to have an ultrasound to see if it perforated.

I caused this myself, just like when

Possible trigger:

I stabbed myself.

My intent was not to do harm, but it might have done a lot of harm.

What's wrong with me?