First of all : there is no miracle to waiting for,you have to make one.
second: if you want to start from some where , buy this book as soon as possible and start to read it : The magic of thinking big by david j schwartz.
third : i think youre running out of short and long goals. make some plans from what u want to be in next days,next years.write down your goals and think about the ways that u will reach them.
fourth: read the book i mentioned above.

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