dear t: next week i wanna talk about something that scares me. the closer my son gets to 18 (he'll turn 17 on 11/2) the more acute my fear gets. you see, one of my dear friends, and i fear so much that the same thing could happen with my son. i don't know why. i know it's irrational. he is a very well adjusted 16 year old. at least, that i am aware of. but what my friend went through... i don't know that i could survive it. i don't know how to even begin to talk about this but i need to. sometimes it keeps me awake at night, the fear. i really need you to help me with this.