Hi Macd

Age is just a state of mind. Research has revealed that the old are just as capable of learning new things such the young. So if you feel young. Then you are.

Your young days are in the past and drugs are no longer a problem. The question now is the future. Having a real purpose to go on does help. This could be a charitable cause that attracts or reconnecting with something that really fired you up in earlier times, either of which could give you a consuming purpose making life fulfilling and worthwhile.

Even the young forget people's names. And certainly I can empathize with you feeling you have not really lived. I could say the same of myself. Suffering from positive permanent emotional numbness and having had depression and anxiety. But I just keep on doing the very best I can to try to reach out to people, and that lets me know that at least I am trying to make a difference. You could do the same.

Once you decide how you want to make a difference. That potential really will leave the closet. Indeed, it is what we do for others. That becomes our lasting legacy. I really hope and pray everything works out well for you. Have a really great day. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis