Hi Crazylo

Researching mental illness is a good idea, particularly if it is in order to find out if there are any good antidepressant drugs coming out or discovering new therapy tools for dealing with it.

But you need to be honest with yourself asking whether you really do experience those symptoms which you read about. You could ask yourself what advice you would give to someone else in your position, which would help you to be very objective about this. Take care. I hope and pray you have a really great day. God bless and best wishes from your friend Francis