Hi Justmedarkstar,

I think everything you said, and how you're feeling, so many of us can relateto. I know I've felt that way. But what I also picked up on is you're two years sober. That is no easy feat. So the person the meds have helped you become, realized that alcohol does not do you right, so you stopped. You say as much, you're afraid if you go off the meds, you might go back to alcohol. The way you feel, is real, and if there is a way for you to stay well and not feel so disassociated, then you should. But start from this place of health that you are in, tell your DR yo.ur concerns, how you feel, ask if there are alternatives. It might not be an all or nothing situation, meds or no meds. You've been doing so well for 2 years on meds, work with your DR, hopefully you'll discover you can stay healthy, AND rid yourself of this feeling of vagueness.
Good luck!!