I most definitely have always been able to "fool" others and appear 'normal - whatever that is' and put-together.

It has also been a detriment to my well-being and still is because I have absolutely no one that understands the severity of my MI struggles, no one to lean on as part of my self-care plan, and no one to be accountable to....

I, too, think there should be some "low-cost" option for you to receive mental health care. And, I hope that you look into it and find a way to take care of yourself soon.

I am from neighboring MS.....PM me if you would like....