Hi tandwstone. Welcome to Psych Central. Sorry you are feeling in such a depression. Kaliope is right about if you are still in this relationship with your husband, it may not be helping you. I don't know the factors in your giving up the kids and if you are welcome at your parents house. Maybe one step is to talk to places that cater to women in distress and they may be able to be an advocate for you. A therapist that understand surviving mental and emotional abuse could really help you get back to stability.

Glad you have joined our community. It has been a slow process over the last year, but I have become more active in the community and it has helped balanced out my isolation on the outside. I have also found it has helped me build self esteem. This article explains that in more detail. Building Self-Esteem | Psych Central

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