hi somethingsome
as you said, you screwed up. there isnt much more to say. i see two fatal errors in your post that make it less than innocent to me. you say it was all old stuff and you havent touched it for years, forgetting it was on there, yet you said she found the videos in "recent documents" - i dont understand what it would be doing in recent documents if you hadnt seen it for years. and if it was someone you were having an intimate relationship with, how would you not know if you had her phone number? im not judging, or attempting to make you defensive, just making a couple points that would make me question your honesty.

you may honestly love her, but women dont like it when guys do things like this. it is very hurtful, no matter how innocent you may feel it is. just because you arent having actual sex with the other girl, the fact that an intimate relationship was involved and those ties are there, it is very hurtful. if you had found that stuff on her computer or phone, what would you have thought? how would you have reacted?

welcome to psych central. you will find we have several forums where you can post about your concerns and receive feedback from other members. you will get a lot of support here. again, welcome